23.51
9 minutes to midnight..
I still awaken and not feel sleepy yet.
Im just alone and lonely, oh no.. im not alone,
God always near, and the angel still watching me doing anything and write it on
The Deed Book of Mine, then i have to ready for justification, one day. Astaghfer Allah
...
I just couldnt explain my mind tonight. As you
know, i dont even interested to be an author anymore. My skill was lost since i
know, that i didnt have enough ‘art skill’ to become author. If you say that im
givin up, youre right, perhaps im slowly givin up...
23.57
My finger still dancing on the keyboard. Push the
alphabets then push the delete one. Huh.. i dont even know what i have to write
in this time. Caffeine makes my ideas gone. Is that true, caffeine? You should
be make interuption for my statement. You should make the ideas closer to me,
not like right now. Make them go away, easily,quickly..
00.02
What should i think on this midnight? Any idea
guys? I need inspiration, but a part of my brain says that i have to create it,
not looking for it. Hmmm, rational. But im lazy enough to make my brain works
in this situation. As you know, the thing that i always think every night is :
am i have any chance to open my eyes tomorrow? Retoric . ya, more than just
retoric.
00.05
Where is my coffee? The mug was empty since
last hour. Somebody please, make me a cup of coffee on this cold night,
please..even just on a little cup, i need it right now to make this cold
away from me..
As not usual, tonight the rain doesnt come and
touch the earth. The moon covered by thick cloud, it looks like frozen moon,
but its beauty doesnt lost . i still could see how pretty it is. White round
circle, full of mystery, oh.. subhan Allah ...
00.10
Do you wanna join with me to do something that
u never expect before?
Ya, enter the finger to the nose hole :D .
haha, dont be scare, im just kidding.. i dont and i wont. It just wasting time,
isn’t ? hufft... this instrument i play
on winamp still cannot makes me sleepy ! ya, i should be blame the caffein, not
the instrument !
At 3.00 am, i have to wake up earlier than
other because i have to wash so many dirty plates, glasses, etc. Thats already
my job, ya...especially for me.. then i have to prepare sahur for asyura
celebration on Muharram, 10.
00.15
I just havent sleepy yet ! help ! i cant do
tahajud prayer if im not sleep at all tonight. Its absolutely my fault to drink
coffee and took a lot of nap, so i cant close my eyes yet. I do regret !
It seems that , i want more glass of coffee
tonight, but nobody serves me. I hate to being like this ! although i could do
it by my self, but i want a little form of another attention.
00.24
Perhaps, it would be nice if i had a spouse.
In this cold and long night, we could talk a lot of everything about each
other, about our marriage, about our children, hei... is it to far for the teen
like me? I love to creating a dream .. wkwkwk
It would be nice when i serve a cup of coffee
for you, and the another one for me. We could sit together in the warm
livingroom, watching film, listening music, reading a book, or anything we
want. We could talk heart to heart on silence night.
00.29
Oh God, how lucky i am to have a female cat
that i called Mengky. She’s very faith. He accompany me to spend this cold
night together. Oh mengky, dont go away from me, okay ? you are my beloved cat,
im not sure if i loose you,i will strong enough to face my day without you. You
are a part of so many reasons that build my life become cheerfull .
Aissh, apparently my sista not sleep yet. She
still walking around the living room. I dont know why she did it. It seems
like, she dont have any usefull things to do except spend her calories by her
way. Uh Nabila... i love you so much, more than i love my self , did you know
that, bawel ?? :D
00.36
Still not getting any idea. Where is the
sleepy? Im waiting for you. Haduuuuuh... in this midnight, i want to take a
pee, really ! i didnt have any bravely to go to the bathroom just by my self, i
want someone accompany me. Mom, please wake up, and accompany me for a moment !
Maybe, i have to wait untill 3.am ! what ??
are you kidding ! 2 hours more left to 3 a.m !
00.40
Adding mocca and tompi’s songs to the
playlist. Wish that sleepy will come soon with this song.
Wait a moment, i want to visite my facebook
account :D
The loading makes me want to chewing the
pillow ! so long !
Haha, theres nothing WOW on it !
Haha, who did added What if by mocca on my
playlist? Is that me? Oh God... it just
make my worried grow up more bigger. And then, i Remember by Mocca . wow wow
wow ! it makes me want to sing along follow the vocalist, but if i do that, im
pretty sure, my neighbour will knock the door and throw their garbage to my
face ! :D
Ahaaaa....now playing Do What You Wanna Do by
Mocca ! youve gonna do what you wanna do, say what you wanna say now ! ska
bro...makes my spirit grow up !
00.55
Hufft... am i waking you up, mom?
Im so sorry, dont hit me by the broom because
im singing. Im so sorry mom, really, i dont mean to waking you up. If my voice
not suitable with your ear, please just keep it on your heart , dont tell it to
me because i will be more frustrated with your ‘honesty’ . hehe ..
00.58
Tak pernah setengah hati by Tompi ? delete ah
delete !
How if MCR ? Simple Plan ? Secondhand Serenade
?
No no no, i’ve decided. And the choosen songs
is taken from Maher Zain ! wkwk...
01.01
At least, i have to end this post ! doesnt good
post ? MEMANG !!! im absolutely agree with ur opinion :D
Komentar
Posting Komentar